Friday, October 24, 2008

Pluto transiting the house of Self


Pluto entered my first house at the turn of the century. I was living alone in the middle of Seattle (next to the freeway), disillusioned with my life and my own ability to create happiness for myself. I desired a fulfilling primary relationship, but years of dating people who were fickle and emotionally motivated had taught me the crucial lesson of not holding onto the expectation that these people I kept meeting could bring me happiness. Very little of my life felt fulfilling and while I understood happiness had to develop from inside my own consciousness, I had no idea how I was stopping myself. All the same I recognized this was a critical blindness that needed growing up.

I’d been exploring spiritual traditions for answers and my exploration of astrology eventually resulted in my first consult. My astrologer suggested I still needed to let go of those things that were holding me back. When I asked specifically what I needed to let go of, he basically said, “let go of everything and what sticks to you is what you need”. I have been practicing “radical letting-go” ever since. It remains a difficult practice, often requiring me to soberly confront notions I’ve been taught my whole life as “being realistic.” But instead of crashing into the ground as I feared I would, my life has changed for the better and I'm beginning to feel "in the flow" again.

Soon after my consult, the funds I needed to leave my unsatisfactory job suddenly appeared and I began to understand I’d let go of my belief that employment was the only way I could support myself. Within a year I moved to Vashon Island; I’d let go of the notion I needed to be in the city to realize my dreams. While I’d met my partner a year before my consult, not holding expectations about my happiness resulting from our relationship, deepened and strengthened our connection.

I should mention that a friend had taught me about "radical letting-go" two years before I decided to consult an astrologer. It was a "new" lesson back then and I didn't realize "letting-go" meant letting everything go--a virtual death, if you will. Now I understand how I let go of things daily, it is a continual process not unlike the seasonal dying back that we witness in our natural environment.

Still, there are times when letting go is more desirable and holding on is impossible. Mars symbolizes how we hold onto things and with my natal Mars conjoined or "combust" the Sun, I can't always perceive how I hold onto what I really am better off letting go. This is where my astrologer's advice nudged me into a realization that I could let go of things I was otherwise afraid of loosing in my life.

Today I am a much happier person than I was even five years ago. Looking back at what I learned from astrology emphasizes the effect Pluto has in our lives. Letting go of false notions we believe are true can be scary, but necessary for true happiness. I’m still learning how to apply it effectively in my life but I’m sure Pluto’s entry into practical Capricorn will be very enlightening.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

More Astroblogging

Two of my favorite astrobloggers, Diane "Neith" Lang and Pat Paquette, are collaborating with a new web page, RealAstrologers. Congratulations go to them for launching this new platform! In fact, with the Sun in Aries and the new moon from this weekend occurring also in Aries there are many new beginnings in process. My last post focused on the many female astrologers I've encountered, so I'd like to also mention the male astrologers who've pointed me in as many good directions.

Mikel Poulsen is the first astrologer I hired. I met Mikel through Gay City's Gay University event which has successfully brought together the community annually for consciousness and spirit raising. Mikel's accessible and friendly astrology overview at Gay University helped me focus my own interest in the subject.

A few months later I met with him to see if astrology could point me in a better direction than I was headed. Our session was far too short, but it was packed with valuable information that I've continued to refer back to time and again for guidance. While it was impossible to answer all my questions about astrology at that time, Mikel did a really good job showing me how the planets in my natal chart interact with each other and signify the traits that are my personality. I can thank Mikel for giving me the confidence to investigate astrology further and not be too quick to settle on one interpretation of my planets over another.

A year or so later I moved to Vashon, Washington and continuing with my astrology studies I met the next astrologer who would expand my understanding of the symbology of astrology, Mark Borax. Mark conducted a series of classes on astrology drawing from the mystery school tradition of Ellias Lonsdale. This "soul-level" astrology is highly symbolic and speaks of spiritual evolution rather than the psychological methods of Western astrology. These classes taught me to understand further the role of astrology within the context of a person's life.

Mark has written a book, 2012: Crossing the Bridge to the Future, elaborating his own experience learning astrology, which is due to publish this month from North Atlantic Books. I have yet to peruse the manuscript, but the excerpt he shared with me some time ago promises to be a personal memoir with unique metaphysical insights into our civilization's future.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Astroblogging

I have not set any goals or timelines for this Blog. But I'm not really posting to announce my intentions for it or to apologize for my lack of activity here. I'd like to point you to fellow astroblogger, Pat Paquette, who has posted an excellent essay regarding the Nodes and the book which I mentioned in my following post of last October.

I have to take a moment to compliment her on her ability to put ideas into words. With her essay she has brought together ideas that I admit were also percolating in my brain last fall, but because of one thing or another I could not express myself. In very clear and specific language she has set forth her own understanding of these complex ideas.

I must mention other people who blog regularly and I've gained great insight into astrology from reading their words. I've included them in the list of links to the side, but I'd like to mention their writing on astrology is very insightful. JM of Raging Universe has posted several essays on nodes in the past that have revolutionized how I think about them. She regularly posts about transits and what they mean on a national level.

Neith and I have had very friendly correspondence about our natal charts and I have to say her writing on Synastry is changing my own understanding of how charts work together. She also collaborates with Elizabeth Spring at North Node Astrology, who I might add has a think piece printed in the recent April/May issue of The Mountain Astrologer.

Tseka is a regular commentator on many of these blogs as well and in my mind is a very accomplished watercolor artist and poet.